This may come as a surprise but there are 8 million people out there who are “psycopathic enough” to destroy other peoples lives. Yikes.
And what’s worse is we as women are responsible for attracting these men into our lives. So slap me for writing that. Just to set the record straight I’ve been there, done that and worn the T-Shirt.
So I know what I’m talking about. Being with a psycopath isn’t funny or romantic, even if the sex is great.
Men that call you names, swear at you, make you feel bad are abusing you. Some women think that if a man isn’t actually beating them up then it’s okay. It’s not okay. Ever.
These men often say, it’s your fault you make them crazy like that. Don’t fall for it or accept the blame but do know one thing now hold on to your seat cause this is going to shock you: You atrract the men you get into your life. Yes I attracted the Pyscopath into my life because I had a bad boy syndrome.
I believed other nice men to be boring. I wanted fun, adventure and wild sex. I melted when he held me in his arms and told me how he loves fucking me. Those moments made me feel like I was in heaven. And he knew it.
I realised quite soon into my relationship that the man had issues but I made excuses for him. I thought he needs love and acknowledgement. I was going to save him. I was going to transform the frog into a prince. No matter how much kissing I did the prince never emerged. It was an emotional rollercoaster of ups and downs. Is that excitement and fun?
I must have been crazy to put up with it for so many years. Even after I had ended the relationship I still dreamt about him.
One day I bumped into him at the store. I went to buy cigarettes. (In those days I still smoked.) It took only 10 minutes for him to persuade me to go back to his house with him, just for coffee. Coffee haha. We had sex till the cows came home. But what I haven’t mentioned yet is I already had a date with another man who also was pyscopathic as I discovered that night. The date soon pitched wielding a gun.
The drama of that night was definately caused by me. Firstly I run off with my ex pyscopathic live in lover, missing my date with the next sociopath. At least my eyes were opened quickly to what the next date was about. I cancelled all my arrangements with the gungho boy but I always had a weak spot for my original physocpathic lover. Till the day he committed suicide.
One would think with suicide the game is over. But no – all that self tormenting – I mean he had repeatedly threatened me with suicide. I was telling myself only a real bitch would not care. You know what? I’ve become that bitch.
Who needs crap like that in life? You stop functioning – all you have on your mind is him – wondering if tonite you’ll be in heaven or hell.
Admittedly I was no longer involved with him when I got the news of his suicide but it still affected me. A lot.
Okay so the truth is he is the father of my twin daughters. There, now you know and I have it off my chest.
During pregnancy I lay awake thinking about how on earth I got myself knocked up. It wasn’t like I was a kid. I was 31 for God’s sake. A woman should know better by that age. On reflection the I was meant to have these 2 kids because our relationship ended with my pregnancy. Just like that. Actually I got pregnant during that crazy night I mentioned already. We lived together for 6 years and during that time I had 2 abortions. So when pregnancy 3 came along I decided to go through with the pregnancy but not with the relationship.
My girls are wonderful – they saved me from myself. I gave up smoking, stopped clubbing and changed myself from the inside out.
I’m no longer bait for that kind of a man because I don’t send out the same signals anymore.
We are all broadcasting some message to the world wether we believe it or not. How else can you explain why you’ve got what you’ve got? Huh? Think about it. If you want to listen to jazz on the radio you don’t tune into a station thats playing rock. Same goes for our lives if we want to attract caring men we gotta stop sending out the signal that attracts those we don’t want.
The reasons for broadcasting the wrong signals are deep and will be another post.
Soooo if like me, you’ve landed yourself a pyscopath now or in the past, or maybe unknowingly in the future, you need to read Women Who Love Psycopaths. You will learn what traits a women has that makes herself vulnerable to a psycopath/sociopath. This is required reading – it’s been thoroughly researched. It’s not a study of yet another pyscopath rather a study of the women that attract them.
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